Saturday, October 6, 2012

THINGS KEEP HAPPENING

SOMEWHERE IN THE BUSH

DAYS 279 and 280 MAINLY WHEAT FREE

3/15 DAYS SIGNIFICANT ACTIVITY


TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS FOR 2012:- 26.5 kg/58 lbs


Welcome to my new readers. 

It's never too late to change your life for better.

THOUGHTS .......

Again I'm putting two days together in a single post.

Family stuff keeps happening. Sometimes it's hard to keep up. I have a sister and brother living and a brother who died many years ago, when he was only 33, from malignant melanoma. Those three families seem to chug along without a constant barrage of dramas. My family is different. Why?

Stupid question because there is no answer. It's a question that leads me up a weird garden path of self recrimination and what ifs.

Yesterday I received an email from our daughter in law, Amanda. There is so much 'stuff' going on around her right now. She lost a long awaited baby a couple of months ago and has a cyst on one ovary. There are questions, both personal and physical, about her ever having children. So sad. This has also placed stress on their marriage which they are working through. Our daughter remains unmarried and is now past the age of having babies of her own. That has been a huge area of grief for her that she doesn't want to talk about because it's still raw. Our daughter-in -law is a nanny. She is baby/child orientated and now her future family is in doubt. It would be wonderful to have grandchildren but we may not be so blessed.

Amanda has been a rock for me and helps us greatly with the impact of our eldest son's imprisonment. Her mother is suffering from a stroke plus muscle wasting arthritic type disease and two nights ago her father was admitted to hospital with extremely low haemoglobin. He has a form of anaemia. He's apparently had a series of small strokes and was on the verge of heart failure. He is being kept in hospital for observation and will have an MRI early next week. Meantime Amanda and her sister have their mother's welfare to see to.

Both our son's home and the parent's homes are adjacent to the most severely hit earthquake areas in Christchurch. Both homes have had repairs done. There is still work pending on our son's property. Our daughter-in-law runs a business from her home which has been severely affected because her area included the central business sector and devastated housing areas. She has staggered along continuing to rebuild her small business with excellence but instead of the profit continuing to grow as planned she has had to pour the reduced profits into re-investment for repairs and rebuilding not covered by insurance.

When I heard the news about her Dad I just thought, 'How much more can she handle without crashing?'

We are hoping our son from Rotorua will visit for a few days arriving about lunch-time today. The weather isn't good and he has a reputation for bailing out at the last minute. He is a paraplegic and suffers from mental disorders which are partly the result of drug and alcohol usage and a whack on the head at the time of his accident. He has also become extremely overweight which has a negative affect on his general health and ability to get around. I desperately want him to read the Wheat Belly book and get on to a suitable diet. He has food allergies but it is only since reading the book Wheat Belly that I understand what is happening to him. I can't wait to see how much better he will be when he gets rid of the addictive qualities of wheat and gives his hormonal system a chance to heal.

It's hard to stay sensible about wheat. It is easy to blame it for every ill in our family but now that I have an understanding of how it affects our brains I tend to blame it for everything that has gone wrong. Maybe it is, maybe it isn't.

My sister's family are expected at Mum's house for a sort of nostalgic weekend, whatever they mean by that. I wonder if they will actually come because the weather has become damp and showery, the wind continues but the temperatures a re mild. This could be a fun weekend, or a wash-out. The fun family stuff is always tinged with a certain amount of grief for me because my own family seems to be in awful disarray.

All this personal stuff is in my Blog to remind me that our life is far from smooth. John and I continue to lose weight and stay positive about life in general. For me, at least, this is made a whole lot easier by having no wheat in my system. Wheat makes me physically sick. Wheat affects my mood. I know that now. There are quite possibly other contributing factors but I'm of the opinion that any health problems I have are due to either the subtle changes of ageing or the long term damage an intolerance to wheat has caused. I can see areas of healing but there are many more things I expect to improve as the wheat free months go by.

I am gradually learning how to keep my carbohydrates low, proteins moderate and fats reasonably high. I still have a small hangover of fat phobia but now I am aware of it when I have those thoughts. I have thought for a long time that the natural occurring fats in eggs and meats cannot be as bad as the experts have been spouting for years. Olive oil, coconut oil and things like avocados were not something I grew up with and are becoming a significant part of our diet.

I used to not like olives at all and I still shudder when I see chefs drizzle olive oil over a meal or salad. Yesterday I bought a scoop of mixed olives from the deli when we bought our groceries. It was 4 pm and the only food I'd eaten was the berry smoothie I had for breakfast mid-morning. I sat in the car and ate several olives, getting oily fingers which I dislike intensely, but my hunger was quickly appeased. Today I will have an omelet shortly and I will cook the filling in a teaspoon of coconut oil and drizzle some olive oil over the completed dish. Delicious. Who would have thought!

REPORTING BACK .......

I am more comfortable eating no more than two main meals with a snack or two. I would like to give up eating between dinner time and bed-time but I have developed a habit of munching nuts while I do sudoku puzzles last thing.

HOW DID I DO ......

Today did not turn out as expected. I thought we would be joining family at Mum's house but I don't even know if they arrived. Our son sent a text to say he is sick. We will see him next weekend when we go to Rotorua.

I couldn't make up my mind whether to dress for going out or staying home. I'm still in my nightie so I guess I made a decision. It's very windy here and quite cold.

My ketosis stix show strong pink so I guess I'm where I want to be nutritionally. Apparently the urine test is not very accurate but it will do me for now.

Friday

Breakfast:- Berry smoothie using milk and honey yoghurt. Not very low carb

Lunch: None

Dinner:- Bacon Hock broth

Snacks:- Olives, camembert, salami, almonds and dried fig.

Drinks:- Water x 0
Flavoured Tea Infusions x 3
Black coffee x 2

Daily Goal:- 1.5lt or 5 - 6 cups large *?*

Exercise:- Walk or Cross-trainer *yes*

20 minutes cross-trainer = 4.5 km

September Total:- 13.5/60 km


Saturday

Brunch:- Cheese, mushroom and garlic omelet

Dinner:- Bacon broth, 1 slice gluten free toast with butter and marmite, cheese, piece dark chocolate, almonds.

Snacks:- Food

Drinks:- Water x 0
Flavoured Tea Infusions x 3
Black coffee x 2

Daily Goal:- 1.5lt or 5 - 6 cups large *?*

Exercise:- Walk or Cross-trainer *yes*

20 minutes cross-trainer = 4.5 km

September Total:- 13.5/60 km



BP:- 11th May 2012, 147/75
23rd May 2012, 135/75
15th June 2012, 135/85
17th July 2012, 137/75
3rd September 2012, 125/75 ... Meds changed. Accuretic becomes Accupril.


Weigh In approximately 7.30 am

1st September:- 87 kg/191.5 lbs
1st October:- 88 kg/193.5 lbs
Start Weight:- 114 kg/251 lbs

2012 Weight Loss History
January:- 10.5 kg/23 lbs
February:- 3.5 kg/7.5 lbs
March:- 3.5 kg/7.5 lbs
April:- 3 kg/6 lbs
May:- 1.5 kg/3 lbs
June:- 2.5 kg/5.5 lbs
July:- 1 kg/2 lbs
August:- 4 kg/8.5 lbs
September:- 1 kg/2 lbs
October:-

6 comments:

  1. Bugger your son could not get up.... You amaze me how you stay strong with all the stress around you.... Hope to catch up soon :)

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  2. Wow your family does have a lot going on. You are doing a great job in keeping yourself healthy and fit even through the troubles. That is awesome!!

    Stay focused!

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  3. I'm sorry to read the drama continues for your family. But you are wise not to dwell on the "why is my family different" questions. We might have inklings, but it's only speculation. I think there are lots of answers we won't get til we cross over.

    And I would agree wheat had a "part" in messing things up. I think it's natural to want to figure it out and have something definitive to lay the blame onto. At least you are addressing the wheat issue. You are doing so well there, in spite of pressures around you!

    About your son and the Wheat Belly book... has he asked you any questions? About you losing weight, or what you are eating?? If not, honestly, I would go for patience. Don't push it. Not a word. Just live it. Let him get curious and see your success, like a carrot dangling there in front of him, and let him reach for it himself. Let him bring it up for discussion... speaking as a rebellious daughter point of view, from my own past. :-}

    I think it's hard to watch our loved ones in pain, and knowing something that could help them, yet they resist. When I stopped eating sugar and flour in 2009, it took my husband 2 years to even be willing to try it. Sort of. I found out yesterday that when he went to the grocery store, he secretly bought and ate before he got home 2 donuts and strawberry milk. And he is diabetic, who is "suppose" to be treating it with diet modification in order to avoid medication. Yep... change is hard. We... I... resist.

    But you are setting a wonderful example for your family now. Continue to not look to the past, but be comforted knowing what you are doing NOW could help your loved ones.

    Blessings on you and your family!
    Loretta

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  4. hmmm. Re: the wheat and your son and Retta's comment. When I read your post, I had a similar reaction as did Retta, I think, when I read you gong so quickly from "I desperately want him to read the Wheat Belly book" to not being anxious to see the results he'll experience going wheat free.

    I actually went back to see if I had misread, to see if maybe what you had written was that he HAD ALREADY read the book. But, no. When I realized that the reading was, indeed, still a hope, I felt the need to advise you to proceed with caution. Retta did it well, so I won't repeat.

    I will add, tho, that I disagree with Retta's advice to not utter a word until he asks. I would--CASUALLY--mention my discovery about wheat, if you haven't already. I kind of a conversational, "You're not going to believe what I've discovered... And I tried it darned if it wasn't true" kind of way. If you've already touted the benefits of being gluten free, then follow Retta's plan. No need to beat a dead horse--it just causes the rider to run away.

    Anyway. Your family distress and your weight loss. I was just thinking yesterday, as I was struggling with my own family crisis and wanting ice cream to dull the pain, how amazing your weight loss has been. MargieAnne, you've managed to lose weight under the worst of emotional conditions. You are truly an example of what can be don when one allows God to carry them.

    You give me hope. And you have been, and will continue to be, in my prayers.

    Deb

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    1. To Deb and Loretta in particular.

      Greg has been asking about weight loss and what we are doing. I've had his copy of the Wheat Belly book for nearly a month now. I wanted to make sure he really wants it before I give it to him so am waiting until we can visit face to face rather than post it. Hopefully next weekend.

      To all who read, encourage and support me I i appreciate you from the bottom of my heart. You are all very special to me.

      I treasure your prayers. I seem to be incapable of my own 90% of the time. My prayer life stinks but God is there for me and I give credit to those who keep on praying for us.

      Can't say how much it means to have the knowledge that God never forsakes us. No place is too far away or too dark for God. Hos love is deeper and more complete than anything I can imagine. Friends like you help keep me in touch with His love.

      Loving thanks. Anne

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    2. Oh, that's wonderful news, that he has already been asking! I didn't realize that. I come from a family where we were "hinted to death", until we just rejected whatever was being shoved down our throats. Yeah, rebellious and counterproductive, I admit. :-}

      So that's great that he is open and curious. That book really is an eye opener. Maybe it'll start a fire under him, and give him hope and inspiration to give it a whirl. Especially since he's seen your results, that it's not just somebody selling a book, but it's real.

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