Thursday, September 20, 2012

STRESS IS TAKING A TOLL





264 DAYS MAINLY WHEAT FREE

1/15 DAYS SIGNIFICANT ACTIVITY


TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS FOR 2012:- 27 kg/59.5 lbs


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THOUGHTS .......

I last posted on Monday night, it's now Thursday morning. Tuesday Amanda took me to Funky Glass, a mosaic shop. I needed at least one cutting toll so I could start a project I have back at home which involves a beautiful, but cracked, cake plate from Mum's house. Naturally I bought much more. I walked out considerably lighter in pocket and heavier in baggage. Amanda had a we spree too and she has already been gluing away.

Another little thing on out list was dealt with when I took an embroidered silk jacket to a drycleaners which specialises in Wedding Gowns and other formal wear. My jacket was ruined when a different drycleaner used the wrong solution to remove  stain. It seems as though I am unlikely to be able to find someone to restore it which leaves me with two options. The first is to contact an expert in fabric art for her advise. The second is to buy a length of silk and get a dressmaker to make me a new jacket and appliqué the embroidered butterflies onto it. I haven't looked at this jacket for a while because I am so disappointed by the damage done to it. It really is beautiful and he more I think about it the more I think I should accept the second option. I could wait until my my weight, shape and size have stabilised. It will be something to look forward to wearing.

My to-do list for this trip is almost complete and we still have 5 days here in Christchurch. John and I will probably hire a car for the weekend. That will give us freedom to do something without depending on family. I think we will buy ourselves a cheap small car and keep it here. Wayne and Amanda can use it in between our visits.

Yesterday was beautiful outside but  the #&^*#%$^%&* hit the fan inside and I had a wee cry. Amanda received an email from H. which seemed quite rude. Amanda was very gracious. After we had vented over it for a while she deleted the first few replies, sending the 4th or 5th reply which was very calm and should sort that out. David was upset because we are doing what he wants and to have his partner turn on us is difficult. David really struggles. We are selling off stuff that to us looks like worthless junk but he has accumulated and collected at no small cost over 20 years. I am so grateful to Amanda who seems to enjoy the process of dealing. That's something neither John nor I are good at. At the same time she has the comfort of knowing she can discuss things with us before a deal is finalised. We are trying to get enough cash into David's bank to cover expenses for at least two years. After that who knows how things will be managed.

It must be hard to hand over your affairs and trust someone who does not have your attachments to your treasures. While our ultimate goal is the same our priorities are not. He sees 20 years work going down the gurgler. We see a situation that must be resolved now and short term gains are the best way. David will be over 50 years old when he is free to resume his life. Things should look somewhat different to him by then and he still has a lifetime ahead of him. It will be different from what he planned. Many people have major changes in their middle years. I told him he has time to rethink and plan his future but it's all a bit raw at the moment.

I was struggling to deal with the contrast between our version of a successful day on Monday and the email from H. when David called early in the afternoon. He wanted to know where we were. Apparently the hoped for extra visit had been scheduled but no one told us. David was all togged up in the ghastly orange security overalls they have to wear for visiting and we didn't arrive. Grrrrr! We could easily have kept that appointment had we had a couple of hours warning. Thinking of David anticipating our visit and waiting for us was the last straw for me.

I can't complain too much. This was a special, extra visit and we are probably going to be given another chance to visit on Saturday as well as the regular time on Sunday. That's it until we come down again in December. I need to write to the prison somebody so we can pre-schedule our visits during the 10 days we have then.

I have had a good sleep and feel somewhat better this morning.

My food has been a bit off the last few days. Nothing really bad but I've had a little dairy and some gluten free bread. Amanda bought a delicious almond and orange cake, (gluten free), from a cake shop. OOHHH! it was good.

I'm trying to talk John into going to the Palms Mall today. Amanda can drop us off and we can bus back. It might even be the day we take in a movie and go into the CBD for a Cafe experience.

REPORTING BACK .......

Things got worse this afternoon. If only H would communicate with us. It's possible that all the work we have done has been for nought. I'm sure we are dealing with a nut case. The good news, maybe, is that we found a home for all the birds. They sound like lovely people who have a large aviary and want the birds for their own enjoyment. They will pick them up on Saturday providing H doesn't change her mind.

We didn't go out and it will be after 3 pm before we pick up the rental car tomorrow. At least we will have our own wheels for the weekend.

There was a huge amount of cream going to waste in the fridge. I made some kind of little cakes or buns with crea, 2 eggs, roughly ground almonds, coconut flour baking soda and baking powder. No quantities because I did it by feel and the first lot ran sideways and were thin and stick to the tray. I find them very moorish but at least they are not starch.


HOW DID I DO? .......

Eating is getting a bit chaotic. I'm no longer dairy free.

This is what I ate on Tuesday

Breakfast:- Spinach omelet

Lunch: Chicken soup, rice crackers

Dinner:- Food

Snacks:- Almonds, dried apricot

Drinks:- Water x 0
Flavoured Tea Infusions x 2
Black coffee x 1

Daily Goal:- 1.5lt or 5 - 6 cups large *yes*

Exercise:- Walk or Cross-trainer *no*

? minutes cross-trainer = ? km

September Total:- 4.5/60 km

BP:- 11th May 2012, 147/75
23rd May 2012, 135/75
15th June 2012, 135/85
17th July 2012, 137/75
3rd September 2012, 125/75 ... Meds changed. Accuretic becomes Accupril.

Weigh In 7.30 am

1st August:- 91 kg/200 lbs
1st September:- 87 kg/191.5 lbs
Start Weight:- 114 kg/251 lbs

2012 Weight Loss History
January:- 10.5 kg/23 lbs
February:- 3.5 kg/7.5 lbs
March:- 3.5 kg/7.5 lbs
April:- 3 kg/6 lbs
May:- 1.5 kg/3 lbs
June:- 2.5 kg/5.5 lbs
July:- 1 kg/2 lbs
August:- 4 kg/8.5 lbs
September:-

5 comments:

  1. I'm sorry, I have no idea what is going on or where you are?? Perhaps you can tell me when we meet up again. Don't stress about the food, you will be OK until you can make better choices :)

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  2. My heart goes out to you as you try to support family. I hope things settle for you and you can enjoy some time with John doing things you love to do together.
    The couple who are to take the birds initials don't start with B & M do they. We have friends in the area who love birds. They had some at their home before they moved to the South Island ...... they just came to mind LOL
    Take care and don't stress about the food aspect, just do what you easily can :)

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  3. Don't stress over the food this week, you will get back on track, you have enough stress going on right now, and I wish I could help make it easier... tomorrow is a new day, you will have a car for the weekend, you and John should make the most of it and do some stuff for you two... {{hugs}}

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  4. Years ago my husband was a member of a Christian motorcycle group. One outreach they did was to visit the prisons. They got special permission to go in to the Yard with their motorcycles. This, of course, was a big draw to the men inside, and opened doors of opportunity to talk, make friends, and share the Gospel. My husband told me they talked to so many men who met Christ IN prison. The experience brought them to their knees in desperation, and God met them at that low point in their life. May God draw your son close to His heart, and may he discover just how much God loves him.

    "The Lord is good, a strong refuge when trouble comes. He is close to those who trust in him."
    Nahum 1:7

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  5. You'll get back to your normal eating regime. Sometimes we just have to go with the flow for a while...

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