Sunday, July 31, 2011

SUNDAY, DAY 222



Weight:- 7.30 am  -  ? kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale =


General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale  =

Mood:- OK



TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach:- NOT happening today very cold, wet and windy.


Indulgence:- bread

Breakfast:-

Snack 1:- 


Lunch:-

Snack 2:-

Dinner:-

Snack 3:-
 
  
Drinking:-
Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 0

Daily
:-Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills etc.:- am N pm N

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walk goal this week:- 9km

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 200 km.

? km to go



S



Reporting Back ..........

Saturday, July 30, 2011

SATURDAY, DAY 221



Weight:- 7.30 am  -  ? kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale =


General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale  =

Mood:- OK



TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach:- NOT happening today very cold, wet and windy.


Indulgence:- bread

Breakfast:-

Snack 1:- 


Lunch:-

Snack 2:-

Dinner:-

Snack 3:-
 
  
Drinking:-
Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 0

Daily
:-Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills etc.:- am N pm N

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walk goal this week:- 9km

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 200 km.

? km to go



S



Reporting Back ..........

Friday, July 29, 2011

FRIDAY, DAY 220



Weight:- 7.30 am  -  100 kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale =
5

General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale  = 5

Mood:- OK



TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach:- NOT happening today Cold, 


Indulgence:- bread

Breakfast:- Cappuccino x 2

Snack 1:- Cappuccino


Lunch:- 3 slices of bread, butter, 2 eggs. Cappuccino

Snack 2:-

Dinner:- Thai style chicken stir-fry with mushrooms a broccoli. 1/2 glass wine

Snack 3:-
 
  
Drinking:-
Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 0

Daily
:-Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills etc.:- am N pm N

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walk goal this week:- 9km

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 200 km.

? km to go




I seem to be very tired.


Reporting Back ..........
I've done nothing constructive today except find the bulbs I should have panted back in February/March

Thursday, July 28, 2011

THURSDAY, DAY 219



Weight:- 7.30 am  -  100 kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale =
5

General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale  = 5

Mood:- OK



TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach:- NOT happening today. Some gardening, all weeding


Indulgence:- Chocolate, oops! change of plan. Bread and no chocolate

No Bread

Breakfast:- Cappuccino x 2 Plain Greek yoghurt with berries and honey

Snack 1:- 
Cappuccino

Lunch:- 2 slices of bread, cucumber, lettuce, butter, dressing.

Snack 2:- capuccino

Dinner:- meat pie, WW jelly, yoghurt, banana.

Snack 3:-
 
  
Drinking:-
Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 4 or 5

Daily
:-Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills etc.:- am N pm N

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walk goal this week:- 9km

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 200 km.

? km to go



I needed to make a list of all the jobs that need doing in the next few weeks as we have guests coming from Florida through a House Exchange website. We will be house-sitting for friends from the middle of next month and before that will be at Mum's so we won't be home most of the time. I guess I'll have to plan to come back home to get all the jobs done. There has been so much rain the garden has been too wet to do much but I'm going to give it a go this afternoon.





Reporting Back ..........

Spent a while weeding. Sunny and had bare feet but head froze so John found a hot to put on me. Had soak in bath and washed hair. Getting lots of queries for Best Bach for New Year, It's a bit of a pain but I don't want to change web-site until I've spoken to Real Estate agent. Sent email to Danielle our house exchange people from Florida.

Jane arrived safely in Christchurch this morning.

Watching boring TV. No book, caught up on Blogs.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

WEDNESDAY, DAY 218



Weight:- 7.30 am  -  100 kg/220 lbs

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5


General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale  = 5

Mood:- OK



TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach:- NOT happening today very cold. I'm not feeling that energetic.


Indulgence:- rice pudding

Breakfast:-  Rice pudding, canned peaches. Cappuccino

Snack 1:- 


Lunch:- Cappuccino, 2 eggs, bacon, cos leaves, PN lite honey mustard dressing

Snack 2:- Cappuccino

Dinner:- pork steak with veggies.

Snack 3:-
 
 
Drinking:-
Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 3

Daily
:-Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills etc.:- am Y pm N

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walk goal this week:- 9km

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 200 km.

? km to go



I am not changing things fast enough. Other times when I've gone through the dreaded ceiling I've pulled back quite quickly. This time, while my attitude is improving and I'm slowly getting back my mojo I haven't been able to make the immediate changes that pull my weight back quickly. I feel somewhat shocked when I look at my stats to see that I haven't recorded 100 kg since last November. All that wasted time. To see 100 kg is bad enough. To convert it to pounds, 220, is shocking me. I cannot keep on doing this to myself.

The longer I take the anti-candida tablets, Candida yeast Support, from here the more convinced I become that I was seriously depressed. I'm not out of the woods yet but certainly feel more motivated than for a long time. John and I have both completed 2 weeks of the tablets. Week one we took one tablet per day and bumped it up to two this last week. We can go to four tablets per day. I had planned to go to three starting today but we are both experiencing some negatives. For me it's stomach upsets with gripping pain and at least one urgent trip to the loo each day. John is finding that the post nasal drip is reduced although last night was quite bad, but he still feels lousy and doesn't look too good.

I'm also sleeping better. I was lucky to average 5 hours a night. I'm fairly certain, without any recording or maths I'm now averaging 6 - 7 hours. That will make a huge difference. I knew the itchiness of my scalp and something like jock itch was upsetting my sleep patterns and in fact my whole life but I don't think I realised how much.

I remember thinking a few days ago this whole thing, weight gain and candida yeast problems reminds me of the frog placed in cold water which is heated gradually. The frog adjusts and becomes accustomed to the increasing temperature until it's too late. The frog dies slowly, cooked to death.

I think that explains where I have been perfectly except I have a different brain from a frog and I can make deductions and decisions based on experience, wisdom and knowledge. This has been a difficult time. I can make excuses but this is largely self inflicted. The evidence has been there for as long as I can remember but not always the knowledge. I've had the 'wisdom' but I was too uncertain of my own conclusions. I did not believe in myself, possibly because I didn't want to. To believe that candida yeast is a serious problem and hindrance to living my life well, meant following a fairly strict diet. I wanted a medical diagnosis and support from my Dr. I never got it. In fact at every turn the medical experts I've had access to have pretty much rubbished this theory and taken my down directions that did not improve my health long term.

The candida Yeast Support tablets have given me an option I have never had previously. I can continue to eat my regular food and somehow they are still killing off the excess yeasts. Slowly i am regaining the strength of mind required to live a healthy life. This does not come automatically to me.

I am reminded of how easily things, anything, slides into chaos if a semblance of order is not maintained. If we don't do housework the house soon becomes filthy. If we don't prune the shrubs, mow the lawn, weed the garden before long we live in an untidy, tangled wasteland. If we don't plan financially we end up in poverty. If we don't get any exercise we loose our muscle strength and balance. And so it goes on in every aspect of life. There is nowhere we can go to escape from the need to have some order in our lives.

I am reminded of the opening words in the King James the Bible.

Genesis 1:1

In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth. 

And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters. 

And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.

These last two quotes are from The Message.

Jeremiah wrote this confirming my idea that God brought order to what had been a chaotic mess.


Jeremiah 4:23

I looked at the earth— it was back to pre-Genesis chaos and emptiness.

My personal prayer. This could have been written just for me at this time.

Psalm 51:7

Soak me in your laundry and I'll come out clean, scrub me and I'll have a snow-white life. Tune me in to foot-tapping songs, set these once-broken bones to dancing. Don't look too close for blemishes, give me a clean bill of health. God, make a fresh start in me, shape a Genesis week from the chaos of my life. Don't throw me out with the trash, or fail to breathe holiness in me. Bring me back from gray exile, put a fresh wind in my sails! Give me a job teaching rebels your ways so the lost can find their way home. Commute my death sentence, God, my salvation God, and I'll sing anthems to your life-giving ways. Unbutton my lips, dear God; I'll let loose with your praise. 

I couldn't say it better.  It seems a long time since I enjoyed singing and worshipping and dancing before my Lord. I don't read this modern version but I think it's time I took a closer look. There has been much criticism of this version but it speaks to me in plain language bringing me out of the fog.


Reporting Back ..........

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

TUESDAY, DAY 217



Weight:- 7.30 am  -  100 kg !!!!!!!!!!!

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5


General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale  = 5

Mood:- OK



TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach:- NOT happening today. Maybe a walk later this afternoon. No walk.


Indulgence:- bread

Breakfast:- Cappuccino x 2, banana

Snack 1:- 
Cappuccino

Lunch:- Pumpkin soup. 1 slice of bread with butter at Mum's Tea

Snack 2:-

Dinner:- 3 chicken sausages, 2 eggs, 1 slice bread with butter and jam. Cappuccino

Snack 3:-
 
 
Drinking:-
Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 1
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 4

Daily
:-Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills etc.:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walk goal this week:- 9km

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 200 km.

? km to go



I am about to have a lingering bath and then we go to Mum's for lunch. Must get moving as I've messed about too long. Day is sunny and coolish after a frost. Yesterday was record cold in many places. Will do some grocery shopping.


Reporting Back ..........

We had a very nice day. Sunshine but icy air. Caught up with Mum and Jane. Shopped for groceries to see us through to next Tuesday. Home just before 5 pm. TV and catch up with Blog Reading.

I dilly dallied too much this morning and had a shower instead of a bath. I think I am seeing improvement in my skin and I think I am beginning to improve mentally/emotionally. I'm beginning to want to do things again. I hope I don't run out of tablets again before they have completed their work. I've already ordered the next lot so hopefully they will arrive long before they are required. The plan is to keep it up for at least 3 months. so far we have completed 2 weeks out of the 12. John still looks awful but he says his sinus, the post nasal drip, is improving.

Bed soon.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

MONDAY, DAY 216



Weight:- 7.30 am  -  ? kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5


General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale  = 5

Mood:- OK



TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach:- NOT happening today very cold, wet and windy.


Indulgence:- almonds

Breakfast:- Cappuccino,

Snack 1:- Cappuccino
. Sausage and 2 eggs

Lunch:- Rice pudding, banana

Snack 2:- Cappuccino, almonds

Dinner:- Pumpkin/vegetable soup

Snack 3:-
Rice pudding
 
Drinking:-
Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 1
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 3

Daily
:-Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills etc.:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walk goal this week:- 9km

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 200 km.

? km to go






Snow is expected on all the high points even here on the Coromandel Peninsula. We have the gas heater on 2 elements as the electric is just not making the grade. There are blue spots in the sky from time to time but they don't last long. I am struggling with cold food, ie. yoghurt or smoothies for breakfast. I have a left over sausage and thinking of having that with a couple of eggs. Not eating bread today will be a challenge but I'm ready to do it.

I will also work out what day I'm on in this journey. I forgot to weigh before I dressed because I was in a hurry to get my warm clothes on and have that first cup of coffee.

Reporting Back ..........

I made it. It's time to get ready to go to bed and I have not eaten any bread today. it hasn't been a perfect day but the only goal i set was to get through the day without eating bread and I have.

IT'S BEEN TOO LONG



Weight:- 7.30 am  -  ? kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5


General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale  = 5

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach:- NOT happening today,


Indulgence:- 2 slices of bread

Breakfast:- Cappuccino, Banana and plain Greek Yoghurt

Snack 1:- cappuccino

Lunch:- Cappuccino, 3 slices of bread with lettuce, cheese, beetroot pickle, butter and raspberry jam.

Snack 2:-

Dinner:- Casserole. Raw apple

Snack 3:- Rose wine. piece of Lindt chocolate

Drinking:-
Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 3

Daily
:-Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills etc.:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x ?

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 200 km.

? km to go


I'm not sure whether I'm ready to do this but I have gained a whole heap of weight during the last dew weeks.

Part of the problem is the backwards and forwards to Mum's but by far the greater hiccup was caused by a flare up of candida related blaahs and itchiness when I ran out of the Candida Support capsules and the new supply took weeks to arrive. I've been taking it for 10 days and there is some improvement. I'm beginning to get my mojo back.

At the same time there is a part of me that no longer cares what I weigh, how fat and lazy I get or how difficult it becomes to move around. I've lost interest in being healthy. Dangerous place to be. I see what has and is happening and I don't care enough to change anything. Is this depression?

I don't think it is but it's certainly a response which reads, "What's the point in swimming upstream any longer?"

At the same time there has been a growing awareness that I'm ready to do what is best for me again, which is just as well.

I've become a computer potato. I only walk when essential. The most I've done is shopping occasionally and up and down the stairs when at Mum's. I'm shrinking with muscle wastage. I guess I've almost lost hope of a better life. I know life is what I make it but there are some things I cannot change and I have to admit it gets me down.

I don't have to care for Mum this week, I think, so the next 8 or 9 days can be lived on our terms. It's a good opportunity to try and get a bit of sanity back and reinstate my healthy routine.

Keeping track here is the first step.