Tuesday, June 28, 2011

thinking out loud

WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF I SET MYSELF A TARGET IN MUCH THE SAME WAY AS BELL?

Bella is preparing for weight loss surgery. She has to lose a certain amount of weight to prove she is a good candidate.

Can I set my mind and heart to stay true to my goal for 3 months?

1st July to 1st October. 13 weeks.

15kg. More if I stay faithful to the plan.

What if I go truly low carb, truly LFL?

What would my biggest problem/difficulty be?

1. caffeine withdrawal.

*****NO NESTLE CAPPUCCINOS.
BLACK COFFEE FOR THE FIRST WEEK ONLY

***** I WILL HAVE CAPPUCCINO PROTEIN SHAKES OCCASSIONALLY


2. sugar and starch withdrawal.

***** TOUGH IT OUT
MAKE SURE I HAVE VERY GOOD SNACKS FOR THE FIRST WEEK


3. fatigue

*****10 MINUTE WALKS .... NO LONGER FOR FIRST WEEK.


4. constipation.

*****TAKE FLOE REGULARLY


5. walking when it rains.


*****MOST DAYS THIS IS STILL POSSIBLE.



WHY NOW?

THERE ARE NO PLANNED ACTIVITIES TO MUDDLE ME.

I AM MORE RELAXED THAN FOR A VERY LONG TIME

I'M COPING WITH THE MUM SITUATION BETTER THAN I WAS



WHY NOT NOW?


FRIDAY WILL BE DAY 1. I LIKE THAT.

WEDNESDAY AND THURSDAY FOR PREPARATION.



BREAKFAST .... PROTEIN SHAKE I HAVE ALL INGREDIENTS

***** I WILL HAVE CAPPUCCINO PROTEIN SHAKES OCCASIONALLY


LUNCH ........ TUNA SALAD, COLD MEAT, EGGS


DINNER ....... MEAT AND LOW CARB VEGGIES


SNACKS ....... MEAT, EGGS, YOGHURT, CREAM CHEESE ON CELERY.




WHAT WILL THE BENEFITS BE


1. WEIGHT LOSS

2. IMPROVED FITNESS

3. MORE ENERGY

4. I MIGHT GET A LOT OF THINGS DONE INSTEAD OF THINKING ABOUT THEM


IS IT WORTH THE PAIN?

WHAT PAIN?

THE MENTAL CHALLENGE OF STAYING DISCIPLINED.

THE STRAIN OF NO COMPROMISE

THE STRAIN OF PLANNING CAREFULLY

CAN I DO IT?

WILL I CAVE?



HOW WILL I DO IT?




KEEP AN EYE ON THE GOAL.


I WILL BE AT MY LOWEST WEIGHT IN YEARS ON SEPTEMBER 1ST

THE PLAN WORKS.

ALL I NEED TO DO IS FOLLOW IT

THERE IS NOTHING ELSE THAT WORKS AS WELL

Sunday, June 19, 2011

SUNDAY, JUNE 19TH, DAY 170


DAY 14

Weight 7.30 am - kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 5

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach, later,
Indulgence:- nuts and dried fruit
No Bread

Breakfast:-

Snack 1:-

Lunch:-

Snack 2:-

Dinner:-

Snack 3:-

Drinking:- Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 0

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am N pm N

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x ?

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 300 km.

? km to go
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REPORTING BACK.........

Saturday, June 18, 2011

SATURDAY, DAY 169


DAY 13

Weight 7.30 am - kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5/6
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 5/6

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach, later,
Indulgence:- 2 slices of bread

Breakfast:-  cappuccino, 2 slices burgen toast with butter and jam.

Snack 1:-cappuccino

Lunch:-chicken, lettuce salad, dressing, cappuccino

Snack 2:-

Dinner:-

Snack 3:-

Drinking:- Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 0

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am N pm N

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x ?

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 300 km.

? km to go

Time to go home. We may not need to come over next week. Depends on what Sister and brother do as they are both supposed to come and stay a few days.

REPORTING BACK.........

Friday, June 17, 2011

FRIDAY, DAY 168


DAY 12

Weight 7.30 am - ?  kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5/6
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 5/6

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach, later,
Indulgence:- bread or cake

Breakfast:-   cappuccino, iced coffee protein shake

Snack 1:- capuccino

Lunch:- left over casserile. cauliflower and cheese sauce

Snack 2:- cappuccino, 2 kiwifruit, 2 small crackers

Dinner:- casserole, mashed potato, beans and peas, carrots.

Snack 3:- nuts and dried fruit

Drinking:- Water x 1
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 1
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 4 or 5

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am N pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x ?

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 300 km.

? km to go

Grey day. Not doing much

REPORTING BACK.........
Watched Gigi and another old movie, VIPs I love this era of movies. Brilliant actors, amusing and no stress. Stayed up too late to finish Blog reading for the day.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

THURSDAY, DAY 167


DAY 11

Weight 7.30 am - ? kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 6

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach, later,
Indulgence:- nuts and dried fruit
No Bread

Breakfast:- Cappuccino x 2, fresh apple

Snack 1:- Cappuccino

Lunch:- left over chicken from last night, cappuccino

Snack 2:- fruit tea and biscuit

Dinner:- Beef casserole, potato, cauliflower, carrot, cheese sauce, birthday cake

Snack 3:- fruit tea, nuts and dried fruit

Drinking:- Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 2
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x4

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x ?

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 300 km.

295 km to go

Up early and took dawn photos. Mum OK Cleaner arrived about 11.30am so we had lunch after she left at 12.30.

Nice day, blue sky hidden with a light layer of cloud, some of it must be from Chile's erupting volcano.

REPORTING BACK......... 


I didn't go for a walk. Big mistake. Otherwise  a pleasant day.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

WEDNESDAY, DAY 166, JUNE 15TH .... BIRTHDAY BASH


DAY 10

Weight 7.30 am - 97 kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 6

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach, later, Didn't happen.
Indulgence:- custard, rice, icecream
No Bread

Breakfast:- cappuccino. Iced Coffee proteinshake

Snack 1:- cappuccino

Lunch:- pumpkin soup, cappuccino

Snack 2:- cappuccino

Dinner:- Thai chicken with broccoli, mushroom, beans and rice. Chocolate birthday cake, 1.5 glasses of Wine

Snack 3:- nuts and dried fruit

Drinking:- Water x 1
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x lost count

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- 0

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 0 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 300 km.

? km to go
We arrived at Mum's about 10.30am.

All went well except the walk. I enjoyed getting dinner.

REPORTING BACK.........

I don't think I over ate but I did have rice and cake on the same day as well as nuts and dried fruit.

Went to bed content with my day.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

TUESDAY, 165


DAY 9

Weight 7.30 am - 97 kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 6

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach, later, Oh Dear! not happening.
Indulgence:- nuts
No Bread

Breakfast:- Cappuccino, Iced coffee protein Smoothie

Snack 1:- Cappuccino

Lunch:-

Snack 2:- nuts

Dinner:- sausages and bubble & squeak (left over mashed potato and cabbage heated in buttered fry-pan.

Snack 3:-

Drinking:- Water x 1
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 1
cappuccino with sugar x 1

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- 0

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 9 km,

9 km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 300 km.

? km to go
I am quite deeply affected by what is happening in Christchurch. I don't even live there but I feel the pain of those who are facing it all over again. The recovery of the city is back to Feb 22nd.

It's cold here and cloudy. We are being affected by the volcanic cloud from Chile.

I plan to make good choices today and will also plan tomorrow's meals.

REPORTING BACK.........

I made a lot of poor choices including not going for a walk and staying up until after midnight.

The continuing earthquakes in Christchurch have unsettled me. Add to that having to pack and go to Mum's for the next 2 or 3 nights so our daughter can have peace of mind when she goes to work in the mornings. Mum seems to becoming increasingly frail. This is such a long drawn out process. I have to admit to some envy for those people who have the guts to put their elderly parents into a care facility. Mum is almost at the point where she needs a full time companion but she still has days when she can manage some care for herself. I would never expect her to go into a home for the elderly while we are able to care for her. This is such a beautiful place for anyone to live. Mum has a wonderful view and we are quite sure that no nursing home would care for her as we do. It's simply not an option for us. I do feel for those who would like to be in our position but have no choice because either their residence is unsuitable or the care needed is beyond what can be given at home. We are in a privileged position and I keep reminding myself that. I know we will have no regrets in the future.

Monday, June 13, 2011

MONDAY, DAY 164


DAY 8

Weight 7.30 am - 97 kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 5

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach, later, No
Indulgence:- nuts and dried fruit
No Bread - I ate bread today!!!!

Breakfast:- stayed in bed reading until midday

Snack 1:-

Lunch:- 2 thick slices of bread, butter, cheese strawberry jam. cappuccino

Snack 2:- almonds. cappuccino

Dinner:- pork chops, mashed potato, carrots and cabbage

Snack 3:- nuts and dried ginger

Drinking:- Water x 2
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 3

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- 0 ?

Total walked this week:- = ? km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 7 km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 300 km.

295 km to go
Finished reading a detective story. Pleasant day with cool wind.
REPORTING BACK.........

More earthquakes in Christchurch. I kind of messed up today.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

SUNDAY


DAY 7

Weight 7.30 am - 98 kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 5

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach, later, very weary this morning
Indulgence:- nuts and dried fruit
No Bread

Breakfast:- Cappuccino x 2

Snack 1:-

Lunch:- Iced coffee, protein shake. 1/2 cup milk, 1 scoop protein powder, 1 Nestle cappuccino sachet, any number of coffee and plain ice blocks

Snack 2:-

Dinner:- meatloaf and lettuce salad, apple

Snack 3:- nuts and dried fruit

Drinking:- Water x 2
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 3

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am Yes pm N

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x 4

Total walked this week:- = 5 km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 7 km,

2 km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 300 km.

295 km to go
Woke achy and tired.Not sure if it is the result of damp weather or maybe I need to put a topper on our mattress. it's a fairly new bed but I think we chose a mattress that's a little too hard. I like firm but maybe this one doesn't have enough give in it. I don't think I'll do much today although it would be nice to complete my 7 km for this week's walking total.

Although I've recorded little weight change there is some, it's just that my scales do not show increment loss very clearly so there will be no recorded change until I am definitely less than 97 kg. My plan is working but weight loss will be a lot slower than I'm used to, especially at the beginning. That's OK with me if it proves to be sustainable. To lose a kilogram a month until the end of the year is unexciting but 100% better than bouncing up and down 5 kg every couple of weeks. That's why I decided I'd better focus more on health than weight. Generally I eat in a healthy fashion but the pressure of low carb was getting to me and when not following the LFL Plan I would eat bread as though it was going out of fashion.Not only was too much bread causing problems because I seem to have developed a low tolerance to wheat, but bread means butter, not just a smidgeon but thickly spread.My fillings were generally good but sometimes they were nothing but sweet jam and a hunk of cheese ..... bread, butter, jam, cheese .... I don't think that's wise food for someone who doesn't work hard in the fields.

The day is mild with cloud but not as grey as yesterday.

REPORTING BACK.........

I must have been weary today as fell asleep in my recliner mid morning and slept for 2 or 3 hours. That should have given me enough of what it takes to go for a walk but ... fail

Otherwise all good

Saturday, June 11, 2011

SATURDAY


DAY 6

Weight 7.30 am - 98 kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 6

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach
Indulgence:- chocolate
No Bread

Breakfast:- Cappuccino, Smoothie

Snack 1:- Cappuccino

Lunch:- pumpkin soup with cheese

Snack 2:-

Dinner:- meat loaf with salad of lettuce, red capsicum, celery, carrot and onion.

Snack 3:- almond chocolate bar.

Drinking:- Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 4
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 2

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *YES*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x 4

Total walked this week:- = 5 km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 7 km,

2 km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 300 km.

295 to go
I'm enjoying a day at home. Weather cool and cloudy. I'm having a soak in the bath this morning and sometime this afternoon will go for a long beach walk....I think. I know that sounds back to front but I can't be bothered getting dressed first thing.
REPORTING BACK.........

Pleasant walk late afternoon. I'm shocked by how unfit I am.

I got to enjoy my chocolate treat. Glad I have another one scheduled for next week.

Friday, June 10, 2011

FRIDAY


DAY 5

Weight 7.30 am - 98 kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 5

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach - unlikely
Indulgence:- Chocolate - maybe change to bread - changed.


Breakfast:- cappuccino, Smoothie

Snack 1:- cappuccino

Lunch:- 2 slices bread, butter, salad dressing, celery, lettuce, red capsicum, cappuccino

Snack 2:- cappuccino, 5 small water crackers, butter, marmite

Dinner:- meat loaf, mashed potato, carrot and other veggies John was cook tonight.

Snack 3:- apple

Drinking:- Water x 1
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 1
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 4

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x 3

Total walked this week:- = 3 km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 7 km,

4 km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 300 km.

297 to go
See today's post on my Blog Home
REPORTING BACK.........

I'm looking forward to chocolate tomorrow. Tired out. Going to bed early, maybe before 10 pm.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

THURSDAY


DAY 4

Weight 7.30 am - 98 kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 5

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach
Indulgence:- rice pudding

Breakfast:- Cappuccino, Smoothie

Snack 1:- Cappuccino

Lunch:- scrambled egg, rice pudding

Snack 2:- cappuccino, rice pudding

Dinner:- Pumpkin soup, cheese

Snack 3:- apple, rice pudding

Drinking:- Water x 2
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 0
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 3

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *yes*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x 3

Total walked this week:- = 3 km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 7 km,

4 km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 300 km.

297 to go
It was 11 am before we left home. I struggled to be ready any earlier. Managed a walk and put a load of whites through machine.

Had hair cut and colour. Very pretty. Also eyebrow shape and finger and toenail shape. Will have a proper manicure with polish maybe next week or two when my nails are a better length.

Box arrived from Christchurch with our purchases there. Jane arrived home as we were leaving so had brief chat.

My tracker looks as tough I ate a lot of rice pudding but each serve was very small.

REPORTING BACK.........

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

WEDNESDAY


DAY 3

Weight 7.30 am -

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 5

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach. Slept in and didn't manage a walk later in the day.
Indulgence:- nuts and dried fruit.
No Bread

Breakfast:- Cappuccino, Berry smoothie.

Snack 1:- Cappuccino

Lunch:- stuffed savoury egg with lettuce, small carrot, cappuccino

Snack 2:- cappuccino, nuts and ginger with a little chocolate.

Dinner:- Pumpkin soup with cheese. Fresh pear.

Snack 3:-

Drinking:- Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 1
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 4

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x 2

Total walked this week:- = 2 km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk ? km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk ? km.

? to go
It's difficult when I have to go to Mum's several days in a row. It doesn't help when I don't sleep well and have to push myself when I wake. This morning I needed to wash my hair. Takes time.

Arrived at Mum's 11 am and she seemed to be managing quite well without me. I got our lunch, did a run to the supermarket for a magazine which I overlooked and milk and rice. Tomorrow I will make a simple creamy rice dessert. By this time the lady who comes for an hour twice a week had arrived and was cleaning and another lady from across the road who does Mum's hair also came so I was redundant and came home.

Tomorrow I have to do this all over again but I won't be driving. Once we have done our little chores for Mum and had lunch John has a Dr. apt and I'm getting my hair coloured. We might need to organise dinner for Mum and Jay but I don't think we'll stay as it's just too darned late when we get home. Last night we watched a couple of favourite TV shows after dinner making it after 10 pm when we got home. I don't settle quickly after driving.

Talking of driving I really dislike having to drive over the Kuaotuna Hill all the time. If Mum needs us to be there more often we will seriously consider moving back to her house and renting or selling this one.

Today I worked on my attitude ... I sang and praised and prayed for most of the 25 minute drive. Today I was was a slow driver.

REPORTING BACK.........

Allowing myself a daily indulgence is working at the moment. I am finding it reasonably easy to not fall for temptation nor allow thoughts of a yummy sandwich distract me because I can tell myself there is an indulgence waiting in the wings.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

TUESDAY


DAY 2

Weight 7.30 am - 98.5 kg

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 5

Mood:- OK

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach Changed - afternoon walk
Indulgence:- milk pudding Changed -. 2 slices of toast

Breakfast:- toast, butter and marmite, 2 x cappuccinos

Snack 1:- cappuccino

Lunch:- ham, supermarket coleslaw, cappuccino

Snack 2:- cappuccino

Dinner:- 2 sausages with mashed potato and mixed veggies, cappuccino

Snack 3:- apple, strawberry tea

Drinking:- Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 1
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 0
cappuccino with sugar x 6

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *yes*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x 2

Total walked this week:- = 2 km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk 7 km,

5 km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk 300 km.

298 to go
Did not feel great this morning and was very slow to get going. That was a nuisance since I wanted to be ready to go to Mum's before 9.30. We left home about 10 am then did some shopping. I managed to go for a walk on the beach late afternoon and met someone. We talked so long I had to cut my walk short so I could get back in time to prepare dinner.

There are some changes to our routine. Mum seems to be tiring more so I need to be there earlier in the day. She is having more days when she feels too tired to clean her teeth and get dressed. She still takes care of herself but it's becoming more of an effort and there's no energy left to put the jug on for a cup of tea. We do have some organised care, one hour on two days a week but the lady who has done this since she first qualified for it has left. We need to work out new routines with the new lady. It depends on how good she is as to how much more I have to do. Also Jay will be waiting anxiously to hear from her co-worker. They job share the office they work from and the other nurses husband has some health problems.

This week I will be going to Mum's for the next four mornings and staying until late afternoon. This will play havoc with my planned healthy living routine and out petrol budget. Best laid plans gone up in smoke before I begin. Story of my life over the last few years.

I need to get settled so I can get some sleep tonight. I want to wake up tomorrow feeling alive straight away.

REPORTING BACK.........

Monday, June 6, 2011

MONDAY


DAY 1

Weight 7.30 am -

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 5

Mood:- OK

Weather:- damp, showers

TODAY'S PLAN

Sunrise Walk to beach
Indulgence:- nuts and dried fruit.
No Bread

First thing:- cappuccino

Breakfast:- Yay! Back with my normal smoothie. Tasted good too. Feel virtuous.

Snack 1:- nix

Lunch:- chicken breast with salad of lettuce, celery, cucumber, onion and red capsicum. Paul Newman balsamic dressing.

Snack 2:- banana and almonds (no dried fruit in the house).

Dinner:- pumpkin soup with cheese. Apple.

Snack 3:-

Drinking:- Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 2
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 2
cappuccino with sugar x 1

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *yes*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x 1

Total walked this week:- = 1 km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk ? km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk ? km.

? to go

2,30 pm. Problem. I'm bored. Must not turn to food. Still full from lunch.I could get out my quilt, I could do some gardening. The ground is too wet but there are plenty of pots to work on. I'm also tired. Think I need a snooze. I'm plugging in my ear phones and listening to Exodus via Gateway Bible's audio. That should help and feed my soul too. *smile*


Reporting Back......

I didn't sleep but I did write a post for the NZ Diary. It took me hours of checking info and looking for photos.I think I can call today a Good Day.

Tomorrow we have to go to Mum's because Jay is working. Mum is needing a little more caring these days so will leave home about 9.30am and be late home as cooking dinner for us all. I must make my plan work.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

EMBARRASSED? ASHAMED? WHATEVER! I'M BACK


DAY

Days Bread Free x 0

Weight 7.30 am - 99 kg - too close to serious danger point

Dietary Ketosis *NO*

Energy Level:- on 1-10 scale = 5
-
General Well-being:- on 1-10 scale = 5

Mood:- OK

Breakfast:- Cappuccino x 1

Snack 1:- 2 cups black unsweetened coffee

Lunch:-2 slices of toast bread, 2 homemade hamburger patties, lettuce, beetroot relish.

Snack 2:-

Dinner:- 1 chicken breast with stir-fry veggies moistened with plain yoghurt

Snack 3:-

Drinking:- Water x 0
Strawberry and Mango Tea, etc x 2
Coffee, black, unsweetened x 2
cappuccino with sugar x 1

Daily Goal:- 1.5 lt. or 5 - 6 large cups *no*

Anti-candida pills:- am Y pm Y

Exercise:- 30 minutes walk *no*
5 minutes cross-trainer *no*

Walks this week:- x 0

Total walked this week:- = 0 km

Continues Today

My Challenge this week is to walk ? km,

? km to go.

My challenge for the rest of the year is to walk ? km.

? to go
Even though I did not sleep well last night I woke up feeling more 'onto' it than for some time. My shoulder still hurts with certain movements causing me to yell and catch my breath. There is an almost constant dull ache. I don't feel like doing much although, as I said, that may be changing.

I've been eating whatever I felt like and although not terrible there have been some very bad days and I've got used to eating bread several times a day.

My general health has suffered. .

1. My weight has drifted toward the never going there again .... 100kg.

2. I was holding around 97 kg and had dipped down to 94 kg. Today, 99 kg. Dangerous.

3. Stiff fingers, arthritic, painful joints, especially ankles and knees.

4. Not wanting to do anything - lethargy.

5. No exercise, No blogging, No craftwork.

6. Body sluggish



I KEEP TELLING MYSELF, 'I need to get a grip'.

For the first time in weeks I have made some effort today.

It bothers me that I still have not got control of my eating issues. I am still making choices that I know undermine my general well being.

WHY?

One reason is wonky thinking. I'm tired of having to be concerned about what I eat. I'm tired of the work required to lose weight. I consider my years and think I should be able to enjoy life without having a restricted diet.

REALITY CHECK!

The older one is the more important it becomes to eat well and exercise. Having less bulk/fat makes it easier to exercise even moderately. Health becomes more important as one ages and therefor eating healthy foods and doing regular exercise become paramount to living with any degree of enjoyment.

WHAT DO I WANT?

I want to enjoy the years I have left.

HOW CAN I DO THIS?

Avoid food that makes me feel sluggish, irritable and moody.
Develop an exercise program that works.

THE PLAN

Modified Lean For Life works.

Is this what I want to do?

I'm willing but......

there are some foods I do not want to eliminate but are probably unhelpful.

Coffee. I will continue to drink coffee but most days there will be a midday coffee curfew.

Bread. I really must address this. Rice cakes, wafers and crackers do not do it for me. Alternative grains are expensive as is gluten free bread. There seems to be no solution except to eliminate this food. What of I go bread free for one week. Can I do it? I've done it before but am I willing to do it again. Am I willing to avoid eating bread when the breadmaker comes back? Currently we are waiting for a replacement.

Bread is my major problem. It's called the staff of life and is a staple part of our core diet. Yet for me it is like consuming a slow poison that has a cumulative affect. I can accustom my body to it but I can never be really well if I continue to eat it.

Do I miss bread when I eliminate it?

Ans. Sometimes. Mainly I miss the convenience and simplicity of a sandwich.

This has been my sticking point, the one thing that has brought me to failure for the last 10 or even 15 years.

If I could guarantee I could limit myself to one or two occasional servings per week I might not compromise my general health?

Would that be enough to stop me feeling hard done by or will it eventually flip me back into poor eating?

What would happen if I allowed myself an indulgence each day? Always to be eaten as part of a normal meal or complete snack ...never an extra.

eg. Sunday, Bread or cake
Monday, dried fruit and nuts
Tuesday, Milk pudding, rice, icecream, custard
Wednesday, dried fruit and nuts
Thursday, Bread or cake
Friday, chocolate
Saturday, dried fruit and nuts.

Can I allow myself 2 slices of bread or similar twice a week? Is that safe or will it trigger going off plan completely.

What would happen if I allowed 2 slices of bread or a muffin or a biscuit or piece of cake on Thursday and Sunday? Can I be so disciplined?

I will never achieve ketosis nor lose weight quickly but I will stay healthy and it should prevent me from feeling deprived.

I can do Lean For Life menu with my eyes closed. I no longer need to count carbohydrates although it helps. I no longer want to be restricted to the degree the pure program demands.

But I can do a modified version long term ... maybe for the rest of my life and I will lose some weight.

Lean For Life is all about moderate exercise, everyday.

Can I do this?

The easiest way was to get up and get dressed and go. I need coffee first or water. Coffee will make me procrastinate.

Plan. Wake up.
Get dressed
Drink water
Walk to beach
Increase distance each Monday.

Tomorrow is Monday.